Well, Christmas is, truly, over, I guess, when the kid's leave for school, and, it is just me and Mom to carry on, and, that happened yesterday.
I will miss them, perhaps, a little more than usual, this time, but, I know it is time for them to get back to work, and, for me to begin to make a few more of the "baby steps" on my own.
I will miss the gentle touch that I did not know that Lawson had as he sat and held my hand, and, I will never forget that he kissed me, on the lips, when he left, and, he told me that he loved me.
I will miss having watched Barrett become a young woman. She protected me, like her Mother would have, with the doctors and nurses, and, for all of you that know Beth, she did it just like Beth would have done.
Then, just as quickly, she would read to me, or, tell me some wonderful story, and, at least for a moment, I would be transformed from where I was.
I'll miss them both.
A good day so far.......feel better, just not very strong. Still some problems with my stomach.
A work in progress......
This "blog" thing is wonderful.
I was speaking, earlier today, with Jolee, in Burlington, and, she said they all had been following the insertions, instead of calling.
I told her that, if you know me, and, really, really, know me, then you know I do not talk on the phone well at all. Most of you have an experience when you called, and, was told I was not there, and, you, correctly, suspected that I was. You've left me a call back, never knowing if it would come. Or, if you did, by some happenchance, get me on the phone, and, felt I was blowing you off...then, you are not alone.
I'm just not good on the phone, so, thank goodness for the "blog"!
In closing, I feel like a part of this healing is to make a list of the things you can change, and, to put an action plan into place.
One of the many, for me, will be to relish the voice of a friend, and, to embrace it, hold it, and, to take the time to remember the love it carries.
The kindness and love that you all have shown me will, forever, light the path I will be asked to follow.
Talk to you all soon.
Reid
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Wow Reid!
ReplyDeleteAs I try to respond the let you, Beth, Lawson and Barrett we continue thoughts and prayers the emotions from "back to me again" hinders my focus.
Could I expect anything less? No
Ron
and all this time I really did think, when I called, that you were on your way to the moon and wouldn't be back for 3 months.....
ReplyDeleteHey Reid, you know, I've been thinking. I'm kinda troubled by the route you took to shedding a few pounds. i mean, yeah, it was a sound plan and definitely evidence based. There are numerous studies which show without a doubt that a heart attack of the severity of yours will result in weight loss. So, I can't fault your method. However, I believe I have a plan that will have the same result but with much less pain and suffering. What we'll do is have Lawson hold you down, I'll take a sledge to your lower jaw, and Steve P. can then wire the pieces together for 6 months. What do you think?
And btw, I share your sentiments about the phone.
Steve
Reid,
ReplyDeleteYes, this blogging tool is great--maybe for you and DEFINITELY for all of us who are routinely checking on your progress. It's great for us to be able to hear how you're doing without hounding your family.
And what a story this has been to follow! I have been impressed by your insights, your hard work toward recovery, and by your family's strength and dedication to each other. I expect it was hard to see Lawson & Barrett head back to school, but it's great that life is returning to normal or all. Thanks very much for sharing with all of us. (No phones required. I'm okay with that!) I expect that every one of us could and should take away the message that life is sweet and family and friends are the best that life has to offer! Nancy
Reid:
ReplyDeleteIt's so nice to hear from you and to hear these inspiring stories about how your family has courageously made its way through this mess. Sending lots of love and prayers your way as the journey continues.
Stuart Hill